"When did I wither and lose my bloom?"

"When did I wither and lose my bloom?" watercolor on 140 lb paper 11" x 15".
I painted this and later wrote this poem:
When did I wither and lose my bloom?

I feel misery and a misunderstood
fear of death
My head is so heavy pulling me
down into hell
Falling petals make me dizzy
like in a sick dream.
I can hear my rusty leaves crack
When did I wither and lose my bloom?

Ala Ilescu